Hi I saw your entry about Law and Order UK and I was thinking about it. I know the next episode is named Survivor's Guilt, which most people think it mean that Matt dies. But upon rewatching I saw another officer was shot as well. Which I think means that Matt lives and has the guilt. I felt like I should share this :D Hope you breathe easier now.
Ah! I never thought about that, oh I do hope that’s the case. I really do. I tend to get a little fangirl-ish (and a bit too attatched) about certain guys sometimes and Matt Devlin seems to do that to me.
The first episode of the next series of Law and Order: UK is called 'Survivor's Guilt'! That’s it, it’s official - Matt dies!
No, no, no, NO!
I haven’t just suddenly decided he dies, think about it - you only have survivor’s guilt if you’ve survived something which has killed somebody else AKA he dies and somebody else feels guilty about it. I can’t watch it if Matt isn’t in it, his relationships with Ronnie and Alesha make the program. And Jamie Bamber is crazily good looking. Oh God, it’s so sad.
So, yesterday I said I was going to start eating healthily. This morning I got up and had a Cadbury Flake for breakfast. Then I went out with my parents and in the car I had a packet of crisps (Frazzles, to be precise). In a coffee shop later on I had a Belgian bun, then later a meal at McDonalds. For tea I had pasta (slightly redeeming) and then a Cornetto ice cream. All in all, the healthy eating is going great.
I went to see The Inbetweeners movie today. Now just to let you know, I think the program is funny but I’m not an avid fan, I used to watch it every now and again. The film, on the other hand, is frickin’ awesome and bloody hilarious!
“Advice? I don’t have advice. Stop aspiring and start writing. If you’re writing, you’re a writer. Write like you’re a goddamn death row inmate and the governor is out of the country and there’s no chance for a pardon. Write like you’re clinging to the edge of a cliff, white knuckles, on your last breath, and you’ve got just one last thing to say, like you’re a bird flying over us and you can see everything, and please, for God’s sake, tell us something that will save us from ourselves. Take a deep breath and tell us your deepest, darkest secret, so we can wipe our brow and know that we’re not alone. Write like you have a message from the king. Or don’t. Who knows, maybe you’re one of the lucky ones who doesn’t have to.”—Alan Watts (via forbiddenalleys, fatalistichues) (via thesoap-box)
I'm officially going to take part in NaNoWriMo this year.
I signed up this morning, ready for November. I think it may benefit me significantly, it should help me realise that my writing doesn’t always have to be perfect and that it’s allowed to be a mess and if I force myself to write everyday it should help this ‘writer’s block’ crap I appear to have constantly.
Now I just need to think of something to write about, I’ve never been very good with plots. Oh well.
Thank you to one of the best friends I could ever wish for. You’re amazing and I love you, we all love you.
I just love the way I know I can tell you anything and it will never get further than that room. I think it’s great how we’re so comfortable around each other, and how no matter who blows off our plans for whatever shit we’ll still spend that time together anyway because that’s what the closest of friends do. Like today, none of the others in our group could make it, but we still spent the whole day together, just chatting and having a laugh.
I know that no matter how much we may bicker and fight, we’ll always make up again in the end. And that’s how I know that we’re going to be friends for quite a time to come. And thank you for that.
The last episode of this series of Law and Order: UK… OH HELL NO.
Matt got shot! I’m not going to lie, I’m a little infatuated with Jamie Bamber so as soon as that happened I wanted to cry just a little bit. And Alesha! Oh, she wanted to help but had no idea what to do, bless. And then at the end there was that little ‘To be continued…’ title, I need the next series already!
Instinctively, I’ve gone into my usual ‘fangirl mode’ and I’m trawling through fanfiction.net for some Law and Order: UK shit to read, I’ve found a few I must admit. That’s my evenings for the next few days sorted.
There are some absolute fucktards in England. Rioting and looting? Seriously? Are you that stupid to destroy the lives of so many people solely because you fancy a new TV and laptop? And besides, do most of them even know what they're rioting about? IDIOTS.
I haven’t spoken to him in three weeks and I never thought I’d say this, but I truly miss him. I really do, and it doesn’t suprise me as such, I just never thought it would be like this. I miss the way he’d always ask how I was and what I’d been up to - everytime, without a doubt, because he cared. I miss the random conversations over facebook at one in the morning. I know I’ve told him things that I haven’t even told my closest friends. I miss the way he’d always want to read whatever random shit I’d been writing at God knows what hour in the night, and how he’d ask and ask and ask until I told him what it was about or let him read a snippet and how it used to encourage it. Though the worst part is that it’s all my fault because I wanted such different things to him, so he cut me out of his life to save him the pain. And I understand that, I really do, but I just didn’t think he really meant it when he said ’goodbye’, but I suppose he did. And that hurts. Sometimes I wish I could feel how other people want me to, just to make it all easier, but I guess it was never meant to be easy. You’re meant to work at these things, and I’m sorry I never even tried.